Breaking up is hard to do.

Breaking up is hard to do
Before and after the I love yous.
Making up can be the glue
But it will never be as secure as a screw
Temporary fixes can mask the pain
Lies and deceit brings it back again.
Breaking up is hard to do
Before and after the I love yous- Random poem by me completely butchered what a poem is but hey it's art :)

Gifts.

Every year I convince myself I will not be participating in gift giving during the holiday season. Every year I fail. Maybe its my shopping addiction, even when Im not shopping for myself I still get the same joy in buying things and especially things on sale. This year I have quit a few people to buy for.My mom , dad, two brothers and one of their girlfriends . That may not seen like alot but for a college student it is . I have two more weeks until Christmas and one pay check . This should be fun .

Dieting.

I'm on a diet. The drink nothing but water and survive off of three bites of food diet. Okay I'm being dramatic but its not diet I want to change my food habits and overall health. I have lived the days of eating poorly. McDonald's every other day , soda, candy and chips. But now my body and skin are starting to display a of my unhealthy eating habits . First thing to go is the soda and fast food. This has been the hardest for me but is the worst of what I eat . Next will be my uncontrolled snacking that occurs everyday all day . Instead I will drink water when I feel the need to nibble . I have however mastered breakfast . Water with egg whites and maybe one slice of turkey bacon and when I'm on the go I eat a gluten free chocolate min protein bar . Although its not the best breakfast it's better than a donut . The biggest enemy however is my sodium intake . I would like to reduce that by half if possible , I will be investing in some Mrs. Dash seasonings which contain no salt . Well that's all for today !

Today.

I woke up early than expected this morning around 7:30 am due to the chaos in my household. My mom and dad running around trying to hang up Christmas decorations. My dogs climbing on my bed and licking my face . I decided to go straight to the gym and get a u
workout in while I had a chance . I got back home and attempted to do some
work considering the last week of classes are approaching . That completely failed . So I took a nap for a few hours. Now I'm sitting around the living room with a few family members watching tv and eating I'm probably ruining everything I did in the gym. But I will survive I might even go bd for another work out. Adios !

Math .

From a young age I realized my weakness in math . I am not sure if I created this reality or if I was thrown into it. The site of a problem makes my brain hurt. For some people math is just another subject. No big deal . See how a problem is solved practice a few times and bam ! They got it. But for me it's watch the problem 50 times practice endlessly and still get the problem wrong each time in a different way. Maybe Im not applying myself maybe I have convinced myself that I am bad at math so much it is coming true. Either way, I hate math.

Learning..

"Learning how to learn is more important than the thing you are learning". 

I'am not sure where exactly I have heard this quote before, but I remember hearing it as a child, and it has stuck with me ever since. Now that I am college and paying for my education along with the help of loans, I realize how important knowing how to learn is. Anything is learnable in a sense. But learning how to learn is not always easy. Looking back at elementary is I notice that it was not so much what we were learning but how we learned. By asking questions, by investigating, by researching. Being in college this is important concept. Not knowing how to use these skills entering into college will only result in your down fall, Professors are not there to shove information down your throats, they simply present the information to you. It is our job as students to take that information and expand on it, to research and question it. To soak up as much as we can before we leave to make us more educated and well rounded citizens of the world. Being thirsty for knowledge is one of the best traits a person can have in my opinion. Because someone who wants to learn will always continue to learn and grow as a individual. But when that passion for knowledge is not there , neither is growth.

End of the semester.

The end of the semester means pretty much to anyone who is college. Less sleep, more coffee and making up all the work you have been putting off for 3 months. Why do college students wait until the last possible minute to complete work? Because we are lazy..but thats neither here or there. I am just happy to say I have made it to the end of the semester at all. So many people I began college with are no longer here. Either they couldn't handle the work and were just too lazy to do it.As a matter of fact more than half of my friends that I started school with have dropped out all togethor with no plans on returning. And lets face it even if they do plan on coming back they wont. To me college is like a band aid if you stop half way through pulling it off you will never want to go back and finish it.Although there are many of times I rather drop out and pursue a career in exoctiv dancing or the ever so popluar fast food ,I remind myself these jobs are good for now but now isnt forever. getting paid 600$ is good when you are 19. But no one stays young forever. So I grit my teeth and deal with it. Drowing myself in loans, accumulating debt I will most likey never be able to pay back.